Lately I’ve been busy traveling and working, at the edge of my seat experiencing life. Flowing with every wave and every crease. Cooperating with others, making plans and enjoying their company. When I got home and the busyness decreased the confusion began. Sudden change and down time can do that to you. You start wanting to explain the past and trying to grasp the future. I got so occupied with this exercise and caught up in my mind that I completely forgot to be present. I forgot my practice which took me far away from here and now. What changed and why; let me tell you.
Being in the moment requires you to be fully immersed in the here and now. You need to accept what is and yet not cling to any of it. It’s like being drunken in love. Everything fills you up. You are not lacking anything and that love you radiate paints the world you see in colorful colors. The love is not only in you but in everyone and everything you see, touch, smell, hear, taste and feel. When you rise in love suddenly everything becomes love. Paradise is not a destination, you are the paradise yet it’s all around you. You start noticing details like leaves getting swept away by the wind, how the sun feels on your skin, a bumble bee drinking nectar from a flower, the lovely tunes of a bird singing. Suddenly the entire universe becomes the garden of Eve. Everything is Divine.
When I got back home the pace changed. I didn’t need to be on top of everything and my attention wandered. I could rest and restore, which I did completely and also forgot my practice. Due to me adapting the fast pace when traveling I got easily bored and started creating stories that pretty fast became the root to my suffering, until I noticed the process. It took a day or two before I realised that the stories made up was what was creating the darkness. I couldn’t put my finger on what is was and why I was feeling so low on energy. It was like I had been hovering a few inches of the ground and now I’d dropped. This time it was subtle, so subtle it almost got me fooled for something being wrong. I let it be, I let everything be and carried on.
I tried to write down the words that was echoing in me and it resulted in more questions and more confusion. All I knew for certain was that I didn’t know anything. I was disorganised and didn’t know which way was up. I wrote a letter to God, I asked for help, guidance and wondered where my trust had gone. What is the point of all this, I asked. When I fell from my wave I sank deep into the ocean, forgot how to swim and it got darker and darker as I sank deeper and deeper. I tried to grasp it intellectually. Why had the previous days and months felt so good. What am I doing wrong now? Creating problems when your brain doesn’t have any to solve is very common. The question is, can you catch it when it does.
When you’re in love you're riding a wave without friction. It’s effortless and it’s carrying you, supporting you, holding you yet you’re not holding on to anything. You don't try to cling to it, possess it or control it. You let it move through you and it illuminates everything it touches and boomerangs back to your heart. This is the love frequency you operate from. When I woke up this morning I listened to the story of Rumi and Shams, two enlightened mystics and poets, and it just hit me like lightning. I had forgot the ingredient that changes the whole experience here on earth. The core of everything. LOVE. The love you seek is not to be found outside of you but merely you seek and find all the barriers within yourself that holds you back from this state of being.
If you think you love someone/something and they/that are the reason you invoke these feelings within you I’m going to challenge you with another thought. Every feeling within you is yours that you can invoke whenever you wish. No one can take a feeling from you or be the only reason you feel it. You are the vessel that contains all of it and you can be in love without reason. It’s your natural state of being. Drunken in love. That’s when separateness disappears and oneness beings. That’s where trust kicks in. That’s where the definition of beauty and you and everything around you is the same thing. You are God, when you rise in love and so is everything else.
Fall in love,