What is that voice in our heads telling us we’re not good enough as we are. What is the purpose of that thought that’s telling us we need to be more or less. Is that voice in your head ruling your life.
Every day, more or less, I can head that voice in my head. It’s telling me all kind of suff. You’re too fat. You’re ugly. You need to do more. Be more. You are not doing enough. I can hear it. Sometimes I can get swept away by it, going into a sleeping mode. It’s almost as if I’m sleeping with my eyes open. The voice is directly connected to my body and I can feel my posture changing, my feelings going wild. I create it and believe it. Believe all the bullshit it’s telling me.
Our society is very concerned about how we look and what we do. We’re maintaining this unreachable goal of how much effort we put in ourselves everyday. We’re treating ourselves so badly sometimes trying to keep it up. Don’t eat that. Train more. Keep a healthy diet. Workout. Make it seem like you have all your shit together. But what if you don’t. Does it change anything. Does it change your value and who you are. Are you less of a human.
You are life in constant motion. Your body is the evolutionary process. It’s a happening and you’re here to experience it. I refuse to believe that the essence of our being is the way we look, which not long ago was not something you could change. The way you looked and the body you were given was exactly what it was. Nowadays it’s somewhat just a suggestion. You can change and modify everything on your body. But to what purpose I ask myself. What is it we’re trying to improve.
How do we not get carried away by the voices in our heads. How can we separate ourselves from that, which is not us. Whatever comes and goes can’t be the core of what we are. How come we identify with it to the extent that we get depressed. Well, it’s because we do identify with it. We do think it’s our higher selfs talking down at us. Telling us something is wrong. If you had to worry about your primal survival, would you still be occupied thinking you need to change your body and your natural ways. Probably not.
Although we could compare the voice and what it’s saying to other situations to make it say other things but that doesn’t make it go away. So what makes it stop, one can ask. Well, I don’t have all the answers but I do know what I need to remember and maybe that will help you wake up too. I’m not that voice. For may years I did believe I was. For many years I followed it to the end of the world where there was nothing but darkness.
For many lifetimes I was bowing down to all its concerns and it played me to the bone. Sometimes it starved me. Sometimes it made up dramas. Sometimes it made me think I needed to do or be other than me to be worthy to exist. It made me feel so small. The illusion that voice painted brought me to my knees. Sometimes I can still hear it whispering in my head. It’s so subtile I almost confuse it with my true essence. I get swept away by it and lose myself for a second, until I come to my senses.
If the whole world was blind, how many people would you impress. What you are at the core and the beautiful life you’re given is all yours to seek and experience. What you choose to identify yourself with is what you give power to. Whatever you’re trying to control gives it the same power to control you. Shoot up, to the higher essence of you. Remember that you are not that. You don’t need to change or do or accomplish to be here. You belong here, just as you are.
Stay with the true you. The one that does not come and go. The one that sees it all pass by. The one that is separate from that, which is created in your mind. The one that it all plays out in. You are not that voice. Neither am I. They are just clouds passing by. Close your eyes and jump out of that train of thought. I do, whenever I catch it. Catch it and be free.